In 2001, I came out to my family. They were not shocked because I have always lived a life were there was a question about whether I was gay or not. I married in 1984, had twin daughters thinking that this would put to rest any doubt about me. I never meant to hurt anyone involved. I thought I would get over being attracted to men. I was always brought up to believe that homosexuals were going to hell.
After I came out, my wife left me and took my daughters with her. The only thing that really hurt me was the fact that my children were involved. The didn't ask for all this confusion. I went off the deep end, thought of killing myself. I went wild.
I thank God that he was watching out for me.
I met a man that once lived in the same home town that I was raised. We didn't know each other but, we became very close after we met.
I moved in with him. The first thing I wanted was to go to church somewhere. We went to Holy Cross MCC in Pensacola, Florida. The pastor was preaching and said the words that I longed to hear. "God Loves you and created you just as you are. I cried for six weeks after that. I suddenly had hope. God loved me, and created me to be gay.
All those years of praying for God to change me, Finally I knew the truth.
I thank God for MCC. If it wasn't for them, I would probably not be alive today. I am alive and living for God.